One year ago today I was discharged from the hospital after having my c-section.  Jason and Madi picked me up and Madi gave me a beautiful bracelet.

We headed home and spent a whirlwind Christmas eve with Madi and my parents.   Then on Christmas morning we watched Madi open her gifts and we were off to be with Ali in the hospital for 6 long weeks.

One year ago tomorrow is when Ali recieved the first overdose of digoxin and then it continued.

I promised myself that I wasn`t going to think about this at Christmas time and already I`ve failed because it`s all I can think about. Last year was so hard.  My Christmas wish this year is that we can get through the holiday without thinking about it.

So from this point forward I`m going to be thinking about how lucky we are that things worked out they way they did. I`m not sitting by the tree missing my baby this year, I`m holding her in my arms and looking forward to the future. Tomorrow I`ll watch my two little girls open their gifts, we`ll listen to christmas music and I`ll cook a turkey! We`ve come along way from last year.

I want to thank you all for all the love and support. I am honored that so many people take the time to read Ali`s blog and that so many of you take so much joy in Ali`s success.

I hope you all have a safe and Merry Christmas and that you are able to spend it with those you love most. This year we are spending Christmas at home as a family of four but the rest of our family will be kept close to our hearts!